having a blog and being able to go back and read my posts has been a huge help since I started running.
I went back and reread my marathon race report a few days ago... is it weird that I can't even place myself there anymore? Is this something like childbirth; your brain makes you forget the pain? I cried again while reading it just like I did while writing it up and in the days following. Sure, maybe still a little disappointed, but mostly I've gotten past that. I'm proud.
Today is 3 weeks since the marathon, and I feel weak. I'm still having to get around with the crutches, activity is limited and I don't feel anything like the girl on marathon day; confident and excited at the start line, determined to finish and fight through the pain, strong and alive.
I know that I'll have that strength again one day, but strange for me to feel that the race report had to be someone else's given how 'unable' I'm feeling these days...
But what a motivator -- to reread what I wrote only a few weeks ago, and know that I was talking about me.
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You WILL get well and get back out there. Three weeks will not deprive you of that much fitness. You will recover it quickly.
I totally agree! I often look back at race reports and events and think - did I really do that? Me? Yes you did and yes you will again, just not right now.
i look back at my old race reports and have that same feeling - was that me?!?!
Hang onto the words. You'll be there again. Give it time!
HELL YES! and you will be that girl who is writing a report about finishing the marathon! I so wish I had been blogging when I ran my 3 marathons-what a difference it would have made to me!! We are all here supporting you! You will be back stronger than ever!!
You are three weeks into recovery, I know it doesn't feel that way, but you are....look for the positive, you always find it.
That's what makes you so special.
It's crazy how fast I forget the last race! It seems surreal when I go back and look at old reports. You are on the road to recovery and you'll be back.
Great idea to read your report. You'll get back there again, but I can only imagine how frustrated you are. It was such a horrible feeling when I was incapacitated in February and it was hard to shake.
But you WILL get back to where you were, and beyond!
You WILL get back to where you want to be chica! I know how frustrating it is :-(
Between all the support you have here in "Bloggerland," and your own sheer will and determination, you WILL return. Stay positive, work hard, and keep us updated. You're an inspiration to us all.
Mel my running friend your going to run again. I just know it. You have it in you. Your strong and your special. Just believe OK???
That is a cool part of having a blog. Being able to go back and read posts is both inspirational and educational.
I agree...it's funny how our thoughts and feelings change so much! You will feel that rush again, no doubt. Just hang in there, Mel!
Just not too long ago, I read back from day one of my blog and it too brought tears to my eyes to see what I've become.
Be proud of yourself, you've done so well....no smoking, brain surgery, the marathon....etc...sucks to have to put all on hold for the body to heal, but it will be worth it in the long run for sure! ;-)
so true! you are still that woman though, just fighting a different battle and using different strengths. those strong runner-girl traits are still there though!
Lindsay is right -- you are the same one who lined up, excitedly, at the start of the marathon. You're just in a different, more tough to handle, place. YOU'LL GET BACK THERE!!!!
You'll be back!
I can so relate to you on this post, all of those feelings. Since I couldn't run last year, I threw stuff... That was the only way I could physically "vent" my frustrations of not running. I threw a Frisbee and balls to the dog, and she was happy to oblige. Hang in there!
hang in there mel. you'll be getting laps in the pool and miles on the bike before you know it. i can't believe it's been 3 weeks already!
Isn't it funny that sometimes we get so caught up in the here and now that we forget where we've come from and forget our own accomplishments?? This is a rough stretch for you, but it will pass and when it does, you're still the same amazing person with the same amazing accomplishments you had back when you wrote those posts.
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